Sunday, 5 April 2015

Loose Ends.

Wikipedia defines fan fiction as "fiction about characters or settings from an original work of fiction, created by fans of that work rather than by its creator." And I think that if you're reading my blog right now, you're likely to be one of my readers - so you will have read or already know what fan fiction is. 

Fan fiction, to me, was my beginning. 

The first story I ever wrote was a Marauders era fan fiction, set in the Harry Potter universe, before I even knew that fan fiction existed. It was what got me interested in writing, and without it and my discovery of fan fiction several days after I lost that entire story, I have to wonder at whether I would have traveled down this path at all. I like to think that I was born to be a writer - but would I still be here without fan fiction? 

Maybe. 

Maybe not.

If you've been following my "career" for a while, you probably know that I have tried many times to leave the world of fan fiction and focus solely on my original stories. I've lost count of how many times I announced I was quitting fan fiction, but none of them ever seemed to have mattered anyway. I still find myself focusing on fan works, no matter how hard I try to get away from them. 

Today I found myself re-reading the final chapters of my story Lost, marveling. I still find it hard to believe that I wrote it. To this day, even with all of its minor flaws, I still see it as my greatest work to date. 

And when I think about my greatest work, I can't help but dwell on the one that got away

When I was going through my phase of I need to try every genre at least once!, I pushed aside my hatred of self-insertion stories and decided to give one a shot. Out popped Crash Into Me, a story that I have written twice now and hated each time. Hated so much that I've never even started the sequel that I've had planned almost since the beginning. 

Today I realised that Crash... is my loose end. It is keeping me tied to fan fiction, and it is not going to leave me alone. 

A few months ago I announced that I was going to re-write it again, and thus far I have not managed to make a start. Now I am deciding that I need to get it done, and get the sequel done, and be happy with them. If I don't, it will always haunt me. It will always be unfinished business. 

And writing fan fiction is better than writing nothing at all, right? 

Do you have any loose ends? Are there any stories that keep you coming back, even after you've completed them?

No comments:

Post a Comment